Mommy and Prince Bendyk

Hubby is Back!

Hubby called me up on the phone at 10 a.m., informing me that he's still in Cubao, waiting for a bus. Whoooat?! Of course, I was surprised because he told me that he'll be at the bus terminal earlier today, which he actually did. Even him dunno why a huge number of passengers was in a long line to buy tickets. It's not peak season, ayt? Poor hubby! Anyway, he is finally back. He arrived just a while ago at around 12:15 a.m. and we had some chitchat about his trip and also told me that he had chatted with my brother and my aunt's family during his stay.

He might be back in Manila by next week. Of course, Bendyk and I wish to come with him. But it won't be possible because of our tight budget. We have to limit ourselves from spending too much for nonsense these days, especially that the prices of products and services today is getting higher, huhuhu! All we have to do now is save, save, save...(hope I can, lolz!)

It's getting late...betta go to sleep now. Nyt2! (mownin'!)

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It's been a long time that I have been keeping this pain. And each day, the pain is getting deep that I feel like carrying a heavy burden. At some point in my life, I asked God, what's missing? What has to be done? Until I finally realized that I need peace. Peace within me...

Yes, months had passed and all those times I was hurt, so much hurt. I never expected this to happen because all I want is to make friends, a lot of them. But life has full of twist and turns, trying to test everything in us, even if it involves people. December, January, February, March, April, and now May has come. More than 5 months of keeping it here...right here deeply buried in my heart. I wanna make revenge when I was terribly hurt, but I didn't. I remained silent because I don't wanna involve people. I kept it to myself. But then again, the thrill of testing everything in me and so with them was triggered. Yea, I must admit that I wasn't able to control my temper; I blew fire, so hot that I hurt some people too just the way they hurt me.

But when will this end? That was bothering me even months ago. I was just ignoring the thought and mind my own. But God seems to tickle my sanity, letting me do something which I knew would be hard on my part. So here I am, wondering if I am on the right track. And knowing that it's our Almighty God who guides me all throughout these endeavors, I'm certain that I'm doing myself not just a favor, but helping myself to get closer to HIM once again. He is once my bestfriend, and I am missing him so much. And I want HIM to restore my heart as HIS own sacred place.

Le'mme share Biblical passages about forgiveness...

How often should two friends forgive each other? In Matthew 18:21-35 Jesus says, "Not seven times; I say seventy times seven times."

--That's biblical code for "indefinite and unending." If two people are serious about making their friendship last, they must always be open to forgiving each other.
In a good friendship we can learn how to get along with the larger community and help build up the Body of Christ. When two friends forgive each other, they are getting a taste of God's own unconditional love.

Somehow, I am enlightened and realized that getting through bumps and grinds in any relationship, no matter how perfect it is, is just but a spice of life. In fact, even the closest of friends have their trying times too. We are just human, and that clearly speaks as to why all these happen. All we need in times like this is FORGIVENESS. Otherwise, PRIDE will take over. And if we'll just let it that way, it can surely build a small spat which can lead to something that no one would wish for-the end of friendship.

Before, my own stubborn pride is causing a deadlock to the issue. I want her, I want them to say "I'm sorry" first before I forgive them because I can certainly grant them the forgiveness. But whether they are the ones to reach out to me or I am the one to reach out to them, I guess, there's nothing wrong about it. As a matter of fact, there are no rules or shall we call a protocol on who should go first. And God is whispering in my heart, "Just do it!" And I just did. I am happy now that a part of my heart is free from pain. I know it'll take me time to clear all the pain that I've been keeping inside not just for these people I have just forgiven, but there are still some people whom I already forgiven but they aren't just aware of it.

I am just telling myself that I need to take one step at a time. God is with me all the time and I am sure of that. He comforts me when I am all alone and sad. He lifts me up when I am down. He forgives me when I've done something wrong, whether to myself, my family, my love-ones, my friends and others whom I do not intend to hurt, or unconsciously, I have hurt.

Let us just ask ourselves,
"How often have we sinned and turned away from God?" But haven't we realized it that God forgives us and is actually reaching out to embrace us. And now, I want to say that indeed, God is our ultimate FRIEND! He is my BESTFRIEND who doesn't just show me HIS untiring love, but also let me feel that LOVE especially now that I am welcoming HIM once again. Thank you My Lord! Thanks to you my BESTFRIEND!


Peace be with you all!
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Hubby woke me up early this morning to prepare for his trip. He'll be attending a meeting with his boss, coordinator and his co-auditors all over Luzon. He was told days ago about the meeting and all the while we thought that the meeting will only take a day. But just this morning when his boss texted him to bring clothes for a 2-day meeting. Sigh! I'll miss him as much as Bendyk will miss him. He'll meet my bro. at Philtranco, Cubao tonight. Hope they can have some clean fun hahaha!

How we wish we could come with him, stroll around the malls in Metro Manila, especially the newest tourist spot, Manila Ocean Park. But because of our tight budget, we just have to wait for his next trip to Manila. Hayyzzz! I miss Manila, the huge malls, the heavy traffic, gigantic buildings especially the sweat-free elevators, the busy street vendors, and the like.

Soon, I'll be coming home, Manila, Manila...hahaha! napakanta na, lolz! Anyway, I hope and pray that hubby may have a safe trip to and fro Manila. While Bendyk and I are left here but tonight and the following night, hubby's cousin will be staying here with us.

We'll miss you hubby! See yah soon...mwah!

Tagged by Marky

I was surprised to know that a fellow blogger visited this blog and had chosen me to do this tag. I don't know him personally, but I appreciate it that despite the simplicity (ows?!) and flaws of this blog, I managed to attract readers and even allow them to leave some of their thoughts here. Thanks to you Marky for tagging me as well as putting my links in your blogroll.(wink!)

1. Mention the person who tagged you and create a link back to them.
2. Copy-paste the traits for all the twelve months (see below).
3. Pick your month of birth.
4. Highlight the traits that apply to you.
5. Tag 12 people and let them know by visiting their blogs and leaving a comment for them.
6. Let the person who tagged you know when you’ve done it!

Before I'll post the months and traits, here's the person that I'm tagging.

1. Dhen
2. Diane
3. Halley
4. Yigae
5. Owenn
6. Lala
7. Ate Precy
8. Hubby
9. Yhen

The Months and Traits

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others.Revengeful - Mmm,Nah! Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners.Nah! Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody. Korak!!! Most of these traits are true for me .

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Takes high pride in oneself. Too generous and egoistic. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

I can finally get in touch with my techie-buddy again. I can't live without this hahaha! Exaj! Anyway, this will just be a quick post 'cause I'm not feeling well today. You see, yesterday until midnight I was busy packing and unpacking our stuffs. As what I have mentioned in my previous post, we had our "lipat-bahay" scene again, arrrgghhh! Yea, t'was tiring. And during times like that, I needed my techie-buddy to back me up, soothe my fingers and vision to help me get back into my normal state. Whew! Relocation, relocation, relocation would mean another set of expenditures. And I just hate it especially when I already paid for my internet broadband connection and yet I still have to pay for the relocation fee.

Oh man! What's going on here?! Alright let's just forget all the troubles of life these days. The important thing is, I am settling everything one step at a time. So there, I went to Smart Wireless Centre although it was raining, paid for the relocation fee, and woooaaahh! I just hate it when I get too excited, and upon learning that I had to wait for 3 days to 1 week for them to set everything up...What are you talking about miss?! I dragged myself in that wireless center amidst the rain and you were telling me that I had to wait that long?! Pa*sy*t!

Well, God still loves me. Kuya, the tech support of Smart Wireless Centre who came over here early in the morning got back to help me out of this trouble. I hate waiting for days just to restore my broadband connection. So at last! I finally have with me my techie-buddy's internet! Yipee! Need to cuddle my pillow now. I badly needed a nap 'cause my head is aching and in just a while I think I'll be suffering from colds and flu. Sniff! Sniff! Blame it to the rain! Sigh!

The whole day was spent searching for a house for rent. Yea I know, I know, public transportation is on strike today and will end til midnight. But the eagerness to find a new haven for us makes me hard-headed again. Well, we've been searching for a studio-type to rent for almost 2 days already. A studio-type home because it'll only be Bendyk, hubby and me who will be staying there. We're not that big to occupy the entire space at home so it'll be more practical to choose a not-so-big home.

But we didn't find any at Barriada so even if it's raining, hubby and I walked straight to Our Lady's Village, wishing to finally find a studio-type home. You see, we have to leave this house even though it's so big and fully furnished for us. There are just some people who are so "makakapal" to stay here even if they are not welcome anymore. These two people do wear thick faces to stick and stay here despite the fact that I am sending them away of this house since they aren't actually renting here and the fact that the woman is supposed to be with her kids whom she left at her mom's custody which I just knew days ago. And worst, mom is the one feeding them since the man has no more job. D'oh! Well, mom can't send them away 'cause she's always the hospitable woman I know. Arrrggghhh! It's a different story! So better get out of this house before I blow fire again! I am trying to hold my temper, but staying here for a few more days would certainly provoke me to give them a new set of hit! Darn! Uber sa kapal!

How I wish we could have our home which we can call our own. Sigh! When will riches knock on us? I just wish hubby can already have his promised house and lot from her aunt. Well, it'll take two more years I guess and it'll be in a faraway land, right within the vicinity of their farm-resort in Silang, Cavite. Waaah! Super layo naman nun sa kabihasnan. ==> : (

But we need a home now. And I mean it ASAP. Luckily, as we walked through Our Lady's Village today, we found that "House 4 Rent" posted on the tree. And good thing, the landlord as well as his family is hospitable to let us rent the house. It wasn't actually a big one as compared to this house we currently stay in. I guess it's only half of the size of this house. But it's already good for us. It has 1 bedroom, living room, kitchen, dining space, and comfort room. We also have our own small gate and the windows have screens and grills. And the monthly rent, which is 2,500php is not that expensive so it'll be easy on our pocket. Practicality has to be with us these days especially that the prices of products and even services are gradually increasing to our dismay.

So tomorrow will be another "lipat-bahay" scene. Hayyyzz! myspace graphic comments

Today, May 8, 2008 is my hubby's birthday! Yipee! He's now 24 years old. Tumatanda ka na hubby nyahaha! So what's for today? Well, I was actually planing days before his birthday that we'll be having a simple pool party. It was actually a surprise gift from me. But since I've already talked to his cousins about the plan, they forgot to zip their mouth when hubby came home, arrrggghhh! I knew it from the start that he won't like it. He hate spending too much for himself, even if it's for his birthday. Sigh!

Anyway, I just gave him a new Puma sneakers as my gift. I hate his fave Chuck Taylor sneakers. Well, he likes my gift so no need to argue, lolz!

Mah gift for his 24th birthday...

So today, we'll just go out for a date (kiligar hahaha!) We decided to watch a movie at the theater, a 'lil shopping and dine out. I'll also buy him a cake so he can make a wish and blow his candle...Yey! And oh, a cake would be a good "pulutan" for tonight. Yes! We're going to celebrate here (yes, right here)...2 pairs of beer bottles will do, a lampshade on and with background music. Oh how romantic! I know he'll love it...

So till here for now peeps...I'll be having my date with hubby (kiligar nyahahaha!)
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Name It...

1. Name 1 thing you do everyday:

Interact with my techie-buddy...

2. Name 2 things you wish you could learn:

-I wish I could learn how to swim (errr...'em afraid of flood)
-I wish I could learn TAEKWONDO (I'd certainly give you a kick if you wronged me hahaha!)

3. Name 3 things that remind you of your childhood:

-Mom had to lock the door so that bro. and I would spend the afternoon sleeping. But the hard-headed me would wait for mom to fall asleep and that's the time that bro. and I would jump from the windows
so I could meet and play with my friends.

-I joined the spelling bee at the age of 6.

-I accidentally hit my uncle's toenail with a real shovel and it was a bloody scene (soweee! hehehe!)

4. Name 4 things you love to eat but rarely do:

-Ginisang Bagoong (It has to be spicy, sweet, and salty)
-Ginataan (pinkish with langka, camote, and sago)
-Camote (either sweetened or boiled)
-Champorado (milky and sweet)

5. Name 5 things that make you feel good:

-when hubby and my prince bendyk make lambing
-countless opps...
-when paypal transaction to eon is completed
-shopping galore...
-eating my faves: choc'let, ice cream, saucy Jollibee spaghetti, etc.

I'm tagging everyone who reads this...

Tagged by Shammy

Things I’m passionate about:

Blogging (Monetized/Designs)
Interior Designing
Pasta/Chocoholic Attack

Books I’ve recently read :

Haven't read any book lately, but planning to lift pages from Purpose Driven Life probably next week (hope so...)

Songs I could listen to over and over:

Songs that soothe my heart like Who Am I, God Will Make a Way and Lord I offer My Life to You all by Don Moen; Friends Journey; Natutulog ba ang Diyos by Gary Valenciano... Listen to them and you'll know what my heart has wanted to tell you, my friend.

Traits I’m attracted to in my best friends:

-Sense of humour.
-Willingness to back you up when someone else has wronged you.
-Good conversationalists (sensible and nonsense rants).
-A no-crab mentality; they would not dare to pull you down just for the sake of fame and power.
-We've all got the brain, beauty and sexy body. (lolz! akin to walang kokontra)

Things I say often:

Hanep ini! (adapted from the magagayon buddies)

Things I’d like to do before I die:

-To know more about God.
-Put up my own business/es.
-Become rich with everything that the family wants and needs.
-Put a charity/outreach program (shelter for homeless).
-Travel around the world.
-To witness my son's success in his career, lovelife, own happy family, and showbiz life (lolz!)